Modern Poems · Spontaneous writing

The Best Gift

They have confessed their love for you,
for each one saw a fragment of your soul
that mysteriously kindling their very own,
gentle as falling petals tickling the senses.

But when these fragments eventually piece back in front of you,
only you have the chance to fall in love with such wholesomeness,
and becoming the lover for yourself no one else can ever compete.   

And this, perhaps, is the best gift from love. 

Be grateful. 

Poet’s Journal The Rebel Sisters

This week, I shout out to my cousin Charles who has successfully and marvellously defended his Ph.D dissertation in France. I am very proud of him and yet at the same time, my thoughts can’t help but wondering about the life of my another cousin, Lily.

I was, by no means, the first one to commit filial disobedience against the tyranny of my family for there was another girl rebelled before me. She was Lily.

In my family, there are ten of us belong to the same generation. We are eight boys and two girls. I am the younger girl and Lily is the eldest of all of us. Among us ten cousins, I was the only one who lived far away from my grandparents’ grand house and their vast orchards. Because of it, I only saw Lily twice in my life so far; nonetheless, she was remembered in my heart as the beautiful and affectionate elder sister. She had been kind to me.

Yet Lily’s story was a disturbing one. Long story short, Lily had never felt love all her life until her meeting of a man who she believed was “the love of her life” and eloped with him. Her parents responded by excluding her from the family altogether. She was banned to ever come back home.

For many years, I had secretly hoped that Lily would find heavenly joy, despite intuitively knowing that she had rebelled for the wrong cause and that it was a deadly mistake for a woman to elope with anyone. One time, I heard from cousin Ron (her brother) that Lily gave birth to a daughter out of wedlock and her lover left her. She wrote to her parents asking for help and was turned down coldly. After that, no one knew her whereabouts.

Exactly ten years after cousin Lily, I also rebelled. But this time, I eloped with myself only and for myself only. It was a painful but rewarding move. What happened next for me was a story for another time.

Every now and then, I still miss Lily. (Even during Charles’s dissertation defense😂🥲….really not so nice of me 😬)

I pray her life is a blessed one, wherever she is at this very moment.

17 thoughts on “The Best Gift

  1. Like you, dear Annabel, wherein each aspect of your being exudes great beauty, your poetry is always lovely. Thank you for sharing, and for inspiring me to write a poem…

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  2. My day ends on a happy note reading you, Miss Annabel. 😊 Congratulations to your cousin, Charles. A long journey to get to that place and to do that in France… a double blessing! My heart is deeply touched by your Lily story. Heartbreaking. A strict and non-forgiving family culture, it seems. I am glad you eloped with yourself and that you continue to find your beautiful self. 💗

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    1. Thank you so much, dear Michele! My day also ends happily reading your comment. Charles is the most ambitious and hard-working among us ten, so I am never surprised by his achievements. And yes, Lily’s story was heartbreaking one. Hope she has re-written that story and made something beautiful out of it. But we will, perhaps, never know the ending….

      Sending big hugs to you! 💗🥳

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  3. It must be very difficult living as a child under the weight of a very traditional structure in an un-loving family. And a daunting decision to depart, and how to do it! I am glad you found the inner strength, and it is a very good thing that Lily showed you a way, years before, although you customized it for your own person.

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    1. Yes, we were indeed a modern medieval family🥲. Lily actually didn’t show me a way for I planned long before her, but she showed me what not to do. Lily was unprepared…. I pray that she has recovered and made stronger ever since 💗.

      Thank you so much for visiting! Merry Christmas in advance 🎄 🥳!

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  4. I come along side you and pray for lily as well! Hoping the child along helped her become strong and pouring the lost of love in the child, which could provide a purpose to survive.
    Now as always, you write beautifully even about tragic, there is a grace and a thread of hope to comes through. Thanks for sharing. Maybe someone with learned to elope for purpose and love for self! ❤️🙏😘

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    1. You are very kind, Tony! Your compassion is a wonderful gift 🎁 to us which is greatly appreciated! Cousin Lily was a very beautiful and kind lady. I trust that she would eventually weave her story into a lovely song with rich layers and delightful notes. 😃

      Thank you for visiting and sharing such kindness! 🌻🥂

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