With me, life is bitter sweet,
I've been a stranger to myself,
and I've been to deceptive hell.

Yet I still believe the songs of childhood,
that innocent tears rolling down my cheeks 
following me through the kettles of ages,
echoing arrowheads of words in silent hours.

I believe that one day goodness will come to me,
but that one day must be today and I won't wait. 
I prefer the virgin sound of a nightingale and
fresh mint leaves infused my morning rose tea.
 
Like a bird,
I wish to scavenge the land, laugh at the storms, 
and chant every praise from heaven to meet you, 
For there are still jasmines blooming in my body,  
and those eyes we see in tears are never our own,
So the time has come!
the time has come to bid a farewell...

Poet’s Journal

Many things have come to the end. Sometimes it’s the natural course, and other times it’s the choice that we must make.

The time has come to bid a farewell, to my colleagues, my peers, and my dear mentors, as my stay in Philadelphia has almost come to an end and I have no intention to linger any longer. Three more research papers to submit and one more dance production to put together during the next two weeks, then I will be free to fly like a bird…

The time has come to bid a farewell, to my birth family, as I have recently filed a court petition to change my surname. For weeks, I was deeply distraught by the unexpected call from a lawyer and what he informed me took away the last humanity I ever hoped from the family I was born to. The man I once called “father” in fact had left me with years of lies and betrayal. The truths hurt so bad and I still cried like a helpless child… I pity the daughter I was and so, Goodbye father. A new lineage will start from me, and neither I nor my future offspring will ever carry their surname. I will pick a new one for myself! (the boldest thing I’ve ever done)

Many things need to come to the end. Sometimes it’s natural, other times it’s the choice we must make to redefine who we are for our own life in order to fly like a bird….

Blessings to all who happen to read my words…..

Posted by:Annabel

Just a woman who writes her heart out, unapologetically……

38 replies on “A Farewell”

  1. Wow, painful and beautifully expressed, Annabel. You’ve got a lot happening, and the strength within you is shining through. Many blessings to you on the next chapters of your beautiful life. 🙏💞🌹✨🌼

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    1. You’re very kind, Jeff! 🙏🤗Sorry for the late response (somehow I only just found this comment in spam😳) I am delighted by your visit and your blessings are much appreciated !👩🏻‍🦰☺️ Thank You for being so wonderful !

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  3. Annabel! You are bold! First the poem… when I see your posts it is time to make a cup of tea, because I know I am going read and savor every minute with your words. Your writing is honest and courageous with gorgeous word choice. The entire poem is praiseworthy. ✨Now to your “Poet’s Journal” – your courage does not end with your writing. You are courage personified! You have made significant and consequential life decisions. For YOUR life! Empowering. Wherever life may take you at the end of your current obligations, I do hope you keep writing and sharing. Yours is a strong and needed voice! 💖

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    1. Dear Michele, your kind words means much more to me than you’ll ever know.💕 I am grateful for the connection we have made and every ounce of courage you have inspired in me! I am the one who is made by many and your presence is a true blessing to me🙏🥰💗…

      And yes, I will keep you posted as always! 🤗 Send many hugs!🥰

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      1. Annabel, it is my absolute honor to positively impact your life. Thank you. 💝 Your words and presence are a gift to me this afternoon, and every other time we have connected through this forum. You are a beautiful dancing poet with a warrior spirit. Your poems offer insight beyond your years and beauty beyond this earthly realm. I am humbled by your recognition and wish to continue being a source of inspiration for you. 🙏🏻🤗

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      2. You are love itself, dear Michele! A thank-you is insufficient to all kindness and beauty you have gifted💗. It’s been an inspiring journey through our connections! Thank you for standing by me!🥂🙏🥰

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  7. A new beginning can be the greatest gift, dear Annabel. This time is yours, to spread your wings and fly from yesterday’s hell, into the bright sun beams of tomorrow’s promise. I believe in you, my friend! You are a very talented, intelligent and beautiful young lady for whom, I am certain, the future will unfold many blessings and much happiness. The next step is yours, the movement of which carries with it the love and support of many friends who wish for you all the best in life! If you decide to come to Knoxville, Tennessee, it would be my distinct honor to share with you the beauty of the Smoky Mountains and surrounding area. I’ve very much enjoyed your poetry and conversation, and seeing your lovely face to start my day is always a step in the right direction. Wishing for you the world, my dear. Your friend, Phil. 💕

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    1. I’m in need of some tissues reading your angel words, Phil😳👩🏻‍🦰🙏…. Thank you so much for standing by me and your extraordinary kindness! Life made some much jokes and I just wanted to get out of the drama for good 😅. It didn’t feel like a ‘painful divorce’, but a total revolution for I finally stood up for myself.

      Your support and kindness make everything better and I’m grateful to have such a wonderful friend like you! 🥂 thank you for the invite and sending a big hug to you! 🥳🌸

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      1. Amen, Annabel ~ more power to you! You are a very capable and strong woman with a kind heart, from which I’ve been moved many times through your words. Cheers to you, my friend & thank you! 🥂🤗✨🥳💐

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  9. “I believe that one day goodness will come to me,
    but that one day must be today and I won’t wait.”

    so powerfully written! your poem intricately flows with a resounding finish.
    Annabel, as you take your powerful and bold steps to stretch your beautiful wings and freely fly I wish you all the very best and more! Even through the difficult moments and the farewells, may the azure sky embrace you, may your every colorful feather dance in its light. We here shall be cheering you on always Annabel!

    blessings to you who writes beautiful words. blessings to you who has blessed us with your words 🙂 always.

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    1. Oh Nelson, you kind words brings me a cup of spring solace! 🍵🙏 Thank you for your thoughtful comment and beautiful wishes ( I know you meant every word and I am deeply grateful to you👩🏻‍🦰). You all have magically shouldered some weights for me and I feel so light again, hopefully ready to fly soon 😅🥰

      Thank you for being a such a wonderful friend to me! 🙏🥂🥳

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      1. Anytime Annabel! I’m glad through our words we can share this magic with each other🌻:)

        thank you for being a brilliant ray of light to my life and a dear friend :)🌻 ever grateful for you Annabel and wish you a wonderful weekend 🙂

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  13. Lovely poetry drenched with courage and a demand to be free. Annabel, at the end of the day, your wings are an attachment, once the spread, the wind with lift them… surrender, accept and then guide! you have been tremendously blessed…let no one take your gift captive!

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    1. Wow, thank you so much, my friend! 🌷👩🏻‍🦰🙏 This comment from you is heartwarming! It strikes me when you said that I’ve been tremendously blessed 😇… for sometimes it’s hard for me to believe it when in this journey..😅🙏🎊

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